They kissed as if they are claiming their dominance over the other...
Varun's hands were roaming all over her body and she didn't resist instead she was busy unbuttoning his shirt, but before she could do so completely, Varun stopped her holding her hands.
She was aggressive like a wild lioness breathing so heavily and tried to take back her hands in order to continue what she was doing but Varun didn't release her hands instead hold them more tightly.
-"hey.. hey! look at me.."
Varun said breathing heavily.
Amyra looked at him a little ashamed of her deeds a moment ago as if she got caught red-handed doing a crime.
-"Do you know what you are going to do??" Varun said making eye contact with her.
Amyra could not stand his gaze and moved away from him.
-"I am sorry if I offended you... please drop me home"
She said trying to calm herself down.
Varun just wanted to make sure if she is doing everything in her senses or in impulse but his questions turned her off and somehow ashamed.
-"I just wanted to know if you are comfortable with this... I am not offended, in fact, I would like to..."
Varun felt like burying his head in earth hearing his own last line.
-"I am sorry... I will drop you home.." He said releasing her hands and looking away from her.
'How I did this. I was unbuttoning his shirt.. gosh..' Amyra's head was spinning with these words so she didn't hear his last words and answered a simple 'hmm'.
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The whole way they both were absent minded and kept quiet.
while Amyra was explaining everything in her mind that lead her to that awkward situation, on the other hand, Varun was thinking of the Letter that came from IB headquarter that ordered him to lead an operation in a terrorist based area.
so he decided in his mind not to involve her in his life even if he loves her more than anything and maybe there's a chance of her to fall for him.
He never imagined this day to come in his life but now he can't keep it even if he wants to.
He stopped the car in front of the gate of Amyra's house and she got out of the car.
-"Ammu.." Called Varun and she looked back at him.
-" You better stay away from me.." he somehow finished his words and started the car.
His word snapped Amyra out of her previous thoughts.
'So he doesn't want me being close to him anymore.. and I was being forceful.' she thought to look at the car before it got out of her sight standing still.
-"If you stay away if you don't like me" she murmured to herself and her own words hurt deep down somewhere she couldn't understand.
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-" I can't give you a family. it's better to hurt you a little now than breaking you totally later."
Varun said to himself looking at her stature for the last time in the rearview mirror.