The Christmas season is fast approaching which made us a little busier but we were able to manage to get groceries and avoid the last minute shopping. The menu planning for the Noche Buena and Media Noche was fun. At first we put lots of food on the list and in the end we were like 'It's too much for the three of us' and reduced it eventually.
I was wondering about Reeve's family. It's the holiday season people usually go to their families. Well my parents are not here anyway. They've been telling me to go with them for some time now but I prefer to stay here. Maybe I like my independent life. I haven't told them about the baby neither and they are not on social media so I doubt they would know. Just in case a word gets to them then I'll tell but if not then it's fine cause it's my life anyway.
I stood on our wall and smiled as I looked at the photos one by one. Soon this wall will be filled up with memories of my little family. It's nothing extravagant but every simple moment we had was something I would forever cherish. The sound of the oven brought me back to reality that I'm baking a cake as of the moment. I'm still a newbie though but I still hope that he would like it. Reeve was something everytime he sets foot on this kitchen. He is simply amazing. Gosh am I daydreaming right now. I laughed to myself on my mind.
"Sachie I think this is fine" He opened the oven and slowly pulled the pan. "Smells good" the aroma started spreading to our small flat. I went to the kitchen and started feeling excited for our little Christmas Cake.
"Those fried chicken smells good too"
"I want to eat them after you know. I don't think it would last until the Christmas Eve" he laughed and I just shook my head cause I know how his fried chicken tasted and I loved them. He is now working on the gravy. This afternoon felt nice for our kitchen bonding.
I feel like starting to make the Spaghetti now and will design the cake later. Reeve was still at the stove putting another batch of chicken while waiting for his water to boil for the gravy. I stood beside him as I started with my pasta. I looked up at him and he was sweating a lot. I wanted to wipe those sweat but I just took a paper towel and handed it to me. He smiled at me and said thanks. I wish I was the one wiping them for him.
I continued staring at him and I hope he hadn't noticed. I felt so blessed to have him at my crucial moments. I know I always say this but I thank God for him. Having him here and not celebrating Christmas Eve alone like I always do is a big thing. Well when Christie was here she would always go to the province or I don't know but she's usually out. But now it's a different story. I have my little own family to spend holidays like this.
Everytime I notice him move I go back looking to what I was doing. I don't want to get caught staring at him. I find it funny like a little crazy. My heart is pounding so fast. I know things are getting better for us but still I want it to be sure before I make my move. I don't want him to think that I'm assuming too much so I better play safe right? Anyway I'll just enjoy the moment and see where the flow gets us. It's not bad to enjoy them right? Just enjoy until things get clear. Crystal clear between us.
"Sachie could you hand me the butter?" I took the butter on the counter and handed it to him.
"Thanks" he went back on to finishing his gravy.
Just enjoy the moment cause we don't know what might happen next. I went back to my pasta and sauce. These two are different in all aspects but once you combined them they blend well together just like us. Is there an us? I don't know but having him by my side is a good thing already. What more could I ask? I don't want to be greedy but somehow I wished I was so I don't have to hide what I feel. I felt my chest tightens at this sudden thought. Its hurting. My heart is hurting because I cared so much for this man and this family. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I told myself to get back to cooking and just enjoy.
There's been teasing and a little playing the whole time we were at the kitchen. We finished everything a little early and decided to rest at the couch while watching TV. We have prepared everything already so we can just chill for a while before preparing for the Christmas eve.
I just usually sleep on Christmas Eve and meet friends the next day. So I can't help but fight this sleepiness away until it's time to prepare again.
We didn't bother to decor the place except for small christmas tree with some lights in it. There are some gifts placed in there too. Christmas will end soon anyway so we just have to put back the tree in its box.
I looked at my little boy playing by himself. We dressed him with a red shirt and a jumper. We decided for a red theme this year.
"Hey baby are you ready for Christmas?" Kenji laughed and cooed. He likes talking a lot. I heard Reeve calling us so I took the baby and went out. It's like five minutes before 12. We sat on the dining table where everything was placed and heated as well.
"Let's give thanks for this wonderful occasion." Reeve took my hand and placed his hand on Kenji and said his prayer. After that short but heartfelt prayer we greeted and hugged each other a 'Merry Christmas.'
Reeve set the camera and came to us. The timer was about to end when he called me. I looked at him and he smiled at me and I did too then the camera clicked.
This is our first Christmas together.
06-06-2019