"No matter where I was, when the sun rose up and I woke up from my dream, I would tell myself it's a new day. Yet, whenever I opened my eyes, the monster within me awakened. It would tear open my wounds relentlessly, and that bone-piercing pain reminded me.
"I'm my children's killer, the source of all tragedy.
"I sought help from doctors, and they told me the monster was a manifestation of my conscience and guilt; it was me torturing myself.
"They suggested that I put my focus elsewhere, find a place where my heart could rest.
"I'm afraid of interacting with people, so I relied on medication and books as well as religion to seek escape.
"I have a small wish in my heart. Perhaps God will be able to forgive my sin to give me my salvation.
"In everyone's eyes, I'm my children's killer, but my God wouldn't. I will give my everything to God.
