I was baffled, shocked even. I could not begin to wrap my head around what I'm hearing. This was not a part of my plan, finding out about this had thrown a lot of things into disarray. And I couldn't help the fact that as if right now, I was boiling in anger. She messed up.
"Why! The Hell would you go an say stuff like THAT!, you've put us all in danger!"
"They would never have let us into the conference otherwise, and Stop Yelling at me!" Asha shouted back.
I think this was the point where I would wholly acknowledge that we were having a fight. But to be honest I don't want to be in this kind of situation with the woman I love, but I can't stop the words coming out of my mouth, or the anger in my chest.
"The We would have WAITED! Another three years for the next conference, at least by then we would be STRONGER!" I yelled at Asha as everyone else looked on, incapable of saying anything
"We don't have three years! You know that more than I do. There's no time, and as such risky moves like this works if it gets us what we need!" She explained, and I have to admit, she's a lot louder than I am.
"You can't be that stupid Asha, my inheritance is not worth the lives in this tower, and the fact that there's a weaver in this tower should have been our biggest and most closely guarded secret, but yet you went to spill all of it to what can be considered the most untrustworthy group of people in the whole of the pit. That's a really stupid thing to do!, we're all powerful, together and alone, but that doesn't mean we're invisible."
"Did you just call me stupid?" she suddenly asked.
"What! No I didn't...…I…."
She stormed off, and no amount of calling her back made her turn back, she even closed off our bond, leaving me feeling empty and seriously helpless. I chased after her, but she closed the door to our apartment with a bang before I could even say sorry.
I turned to Xaseah for help, but she also did the same, she closed off our bond and stormed outside with Varsessa following behind her. There was an awkward silence in the tower, but it was not just them who felt out of place, So also did.
Now I felt stupid, I should have been more careful with my words, whether I was angry or not. And the fact that this was the first time Asha and I had such a massive disagreement left a bad taste in my mouth. I really shouldn't have argued, I've made more mistakes than she did in recent memory, even up to the point of loosing my memories, but even through all that she's tried to be there for me regardless of everything I've done or been through.
And through all that every decision she's ever made, she had made solely or my gain and safety. She's never done anything that would cause me any problems or acted out of her own personal gains or vendetta. Asha was a good schemer, but she only ever schemes for my good. I really should apologize, for both of them. Asha and Xaseah have been a light in my life at a time when I felt really lost.
It was Xaseah who made me decide to take a stand, to fight and do something the right way for once. To accept who I was, who I am, and who I would be. And then Asha gave me a past, saved my present and ensured my future. She was going to be having my child and here I am acting like a total douche bag. I've been a typical man today, and I felt really stupid.
But no matter how hard I knocked on the door or called out to both Asha and Xaseah through our bond, but all I heard was static, there was a wall between me and them, and no matter how hard I knocked on that wall, they were not letting me in. I really messed up.
"Master I think you just have to give them a little time to cool off, the mistress and lady Xaseah have been upset by your words. And while lady Asha's actions may have been brash, and painted a huge target on our backs, she did that for you. She wanted you to keep your pride intact and not have to bow your head to anybody for any reason whatsoever." Asare said to me
His explanation and suggestion made me feel even more worse, it made me feel weak. But it also brought to mind a question I had completely forgotten from recent memory, it was a question Asha herself had asked me. She had asked me why I was so scared to let loose my killer instincts. And now I realized that the question was a lot more profound than that.
Everything I have done so far, I did passively, opting to do it slowly and with as much discretion as possible under the pretense that I didn't want to have our enemies attack us before we were ready to properly fight back and defend ourselves. But that was just a lie I've been telling myself, it was all clear to me now, and it was upsetting to say the least.
I was afraid, afraid of a fight, and very afraid of loosing, because I knew if I lost this time that was it. There was no do over, no second chance. If I lost this time, I would loose everything important to me, even if I do survive it.
Realization struck me like lightening and I felt as if my legs had turned to jelly. In the novels once a hero gets transported to another world, he acclimated to the atmosphere really quickly, and goes about popping heads, face smacking, and stealing beauties.
Why is my own situation so different that I'm now stuck in front of a mental block of my own making. I was not like all those heroes from the novels, I didn't change to adapt to the world, I was afraid of it. Afraid of the duty, fate and destiny that was now laid in front of me. I was afraid of death, loss, pain and anything in between.
This was not something I could just get rid off by strengthening my resolve, this is like a demon that would chase and torment me until I face it and defeat it. But honestly I don't know how to do that, was there a manual for defeating doubt's that subconsciously influenced every decision you've made. There was nothing of the sort, and even if there was, I don't think it would just miraculously fall into my lap.
"Master, I don't think the mistress's idea is a bad one. If we can get bye council on our side, either by a partnership or completely subjugating them, it would serve us well, and rapidly speed up our time of growth. The pit and the dancing caves of Noxis Nyx is just a small part of Shearath, which is in turn a small part of our galaxy. This is the lowest stage possible in your battle for freedom, it's not just the vampires that are waiting for you, but the other races in the caves, and the people that serve you outside of this prison. You alone are responsible for billions of lives across sixteen different planets and space colonies. You have an empire waiting for you outside, forgive my boldness master, but you have to stop defending and deflecting, and start attacking. We can no longer afford to waste time. We need you"
You know what I said about that manual falling into my lap.....seems I was wrong. Well it's not a manual in a traditional sense, but what Asare just said to me struck a chord in me. He was right, I've been thinking too small, and have been taking small steps, it's time to shake things up, and the fastest way to do that, would be to get this elders on my side or under my feet. Right now they're completely helpless against our captors, completely incapable of fighting back. But that was a chance I can give to them, I can make them stronger.
Asha's idea if approached from a different angle, is much the same as mine, if I can get the elders to serve me, then that would make them the most perfect form of misdirection. That way my tower, my dungeon, and my coven of seal less vampires would continue to be a secret, until an appropriate time when I can safely expose my class without retaliation from the council of light.
They say defense is the best offense, or was it offends was the best defense. I'm not really sure, but either way, I can use those two at the same time if Asha's plan pulls through. I just wished I realized this sooner before I went on to yell at her, now she's not just angry, but Xaseah too.
"Asare gather everyone by the pull, I have to give out a few tasks." I said to Asare as tired to focus my mind.
He gave a sharp bow, as he went to call everyone together. Asha and Xaseah would calm down soon enough, at least I hope so, but for now I had to observe the tower and see if there was anything that could be done at the moment.
• ORIGIN EARTH TOWER
• NAME:????
• MASTER: KAEL COR
• LEVEL: 8 (0/70.100)
• AWAKENING: 65/100
• CURRENT TASKS: NONE
• SHIELD: LEVEL 4: 100%
• CREATION ENERGY: 27/ 100
• SOUL ENERGY: 69.800/100.000
• EARTH ELEMENT ENERGY: 18645%
• WATER ELEMENT ENERGY: 1970%
• WIND ELEMENT ENERGY: 0%
• FIRE ELEMENT ENERGY: 310%
• METAL ELEMENT ENERGY: 905%
• WOOD ELEMENT ENERGY: 407%
• DARK ELEMENT ENERGY: 70%
• LIGHT ELEMENT ENERGY: 0%
• LIGHTENING ELEMENT ENERGY: 0%
• TOWER SKILLS:[CREATE EARTH LEVEL 5/CREATE WATER LEVEL 3/CREATE WOOD LEVEL 4/ CREATE METAL LEVEL 3] [ENERGY CONVERSION LEVEL 5/ENERGY GATHERING LEVEL 8]
To be honest it doesn't look like there's been much of a change since the last time I took a look at it. But there's been a lot of increase in essences, particularly for the earth, water, wood and metal essence.
Apart from water who's growth is mainly facilitated by the fact that there's a water elemental crystal within the tower matrix, constantly creating water energy, the other three essences all have a relation to earth as a whole, so the wood and metal essence would increase along with the earth essence, though theirs would be at a slower rate. But it's also about time I commissioned more tasks to the tower. There's conflict in our immediate future, I have to make here every base is covered and protected.
AVAILABLE TASKS:
• CREATE TOWER ASSAULT RELAY (BLUE PRINT AND SPECIFICATIONS REQUIRED) : 0.00% COMPLETED [COST 500% EAR-E, 500% WAT-E, 500% WIN-E, 500% FIR-E, 500% LIG-E, 500% DAR-E, 500% MET-E, 500% WOO-E, 5 CRE-E, 300 SOU-E]
• CONSTRUCT BASEMENT SECOND FLOOR: 0.00% COMPLETED [COST 400% EAR-E, 25 SOU-E]
• ALTER SECOND FLOOR OF TOWER(BUILD APARTMENTS): 0.00% COMPLETED[ COST 25 SOU-E, 400% EAR-E, 400% WOO-E]
• CONSTRUCT TOWER ELECTRICAL SYSTEM FOR: 0.00% COMPLETED[ COST 400% MET-E, 400% WAT-E, 250% EAR-E, 400% FIR-E, 300 SOU-E, LIGHTENING ELEMENTAL CRYSTAL]
• EXPAND TOWER AWARENESS(CONSTRUCT COURTYARD): 0.00% COMPLETED [COST 300% WOO-E 300% EAR-E, 300% WAT-E, 300% MET-E, 200 SOU-E]
I had no blue prints in hand to carry out the first task, and I did not have a lightening essence crystal for the fourth task. However the others can be completed, since I have the resources for them anyway.
"Tower exchange one unit of creation energy for every single elemental essence in the tower matrix. And then commence task 2,3 and 5"
[NINE CREATION ENERGY UNITS EXCHANGED FOR 5000 UNITS OF FIRE, WATER, EARTH, AIR, WOOD, METAL, LIGHTENING, LIGHT, AND DARKNESS ELEMENTAL ESSENCE.]
[COMMENCING TASKS. NUMBER OF TASKS AVAILABLE:2/ ESTIMATED TIME OF COMPLETION: 2:41:46]
Well since this all out of the way, I have to get the ball rolling. It's time to take an active stance, rather than a defensive one. Maybe then, Asha and Xaseah could forgive me for my insensitive comments. But to be honest, women are so damn complicated.