At that moment she seem to become a doll. A doll without emotions… a hollow and empty husk, she then stated singing in her croak up voice as she leaned on the tree looking at the sky that is slowly turning from its gloomy blackish colour into a light yellowish one.
She looked at the sky then back at the grave and continued singing with an absent mind.
♪ I can't live without you
Why didn't I die too?
My tears won't stop falling
My heart's slowly breaking.
I can't help but ask why
Why did you die?
All the good things you've did
I didn't even have the chance to return it. ♪
She coughed once more and momentarily stopped singing. Blood drip at her hand which she used to cover her mouth. She looked at it then wiped the trace of blood on the edge of her lips and continued to sing.
♪ Your kindness, your warmth, your love for me
It really made me very happy.
So why did you leave so suddenly
You couldn't even wait for me.
So I asked again…..
Why did you say you love me
If you were going to leave me.
I didn't even had the chance to say
The things I wanted to say. ♪
A single tear fell from her eyes as she clenched the book on her lap as the night sky turned into the dawn.
♪ And now it's really too late
Is this is what they call fate?
For you to die so early
And leave me alone and feeling lonely.
I Love You! I Love You!
I shouted at the sky so blue.
Why did you die?
The only thing I can do is mourn and cry.
Why? Why? Why?
Why did you die?! ♪
She inhaled deeply trying to prevent the vomit like cough escaping her mouth.
"Hmm… I seem to become a cat on her deathbed [1]" She whispered as she smiled half-heartedly then closed her eyes once more. The sun's rays bathe her with its morning light.
Reen who had closed her eyes was led into a dream, a dream so sweet that she didn't' want to wake up from it.
Reen started smiling and reminiscing the time she spend with her beloved mother, brother and sister, she giggled at her own foolishness, she was absorbed in her own thoughts that she didn't notice someone was standing beside her. It was only after a few minutes, she looked up and was startled and saw her beautiful and healthy mom smiling brightly at her.
"Why are you giggling on about sweetie?" She asked sweetly
"Mom!"
"You're finally here! Took you long enough!" Her brother Damon said in a haughty manner but with a hint of warm hearted feelings in his voice. He stood beside their mom.
Sophia, her big sister merely smiled fondly and proudly at her standing on the other side of Ren.
Reen was frozen seeing their smiles not sure what was really happening. After a few seconds of lapse concentration, she started to cry.
"Reen?!" She could hear a faint voice calling her name filled with worry. She yet again momentarily became dazed but her tears continued to flow down from her face nonetheless.
"Reen? What's wrong? Are you alright?" Her mom worriedly asked as she kneeled in front of her.
[1] Got this from the internet. "A dying cat would be weak. Leaving home can be an act of self-preservation. Leaving home to die can be the cat's noble act." Which what Reen is trying to do here or trying to explain