Oh my, how could that stupid game ruin my love life! I mean my prospective love life!
And so, it happened.
My love life was ruined.
I was in the quarters few hours after, lying on my bed hugging Cryzer teary-eyed.
The sound of the farewell party on the university ground was echoing from the outside. I was there earlier with the lively and wild crowd, trying to find any sign of the beast. My search was a complete failure; it even left me exhausted that I had to retreat to the quarters.
Tomorrow, everyone is going home and so am I. End of my love story!
I wiped out the first tear that slowly crept out from my eyes.
I remember what Ziggy said to me earlier in the farewell party outside. He said that what the beast and I have was just a fling, so I should just dropped the idea of having a love life. He was only kidding right?
I mean, Ziggy is always like that.
A series of pain had been inside me since the previous incident with Cryzer. Plus, what Ziggy said was really troubling my heart when I thought of it.
Of course this isn't just a fling!
This thing in my heart was not some fling.
Because what I feel had no plans of leaving my heart.
How awful was this night going to be for me? I just wanted a good bye rites with him.
"Xhem" Ziggy called on me tenderly. Oh yes by the way, the boys were here with me. They left the party with me. The three of us didn't enjoy that kind of parties anyway.
"Yeah" I replied flatly.
"Do you want this strawberry biscuit?" He sat beside me on my bed and reached out a handful of pink biscuits.
"What am I gonna do with that?"
"Eat it..." He said while scoping one to my mouth.
"No, I don't feel like eating" I refused weakly.
The room sank into silence after that.
"Are you gonna be mad with us both forever? We already said sorry for what we did earlier." Ziggy complained.
I had been ignoring the gorillas since this afternoon. That silly game they started made my love life suffer.
"Huzey...." He called unto Huzey when I did not respond.
"Yeah?" He answered without sparing Ziggy a glance. He was also in his bed right now reading a book.
""Do you want this strawberry biscuit?"
"Uhumm"
"Here"
Huzey took the biscuit and put it in his mouth. I swallowed at the sight of him eating it.
I want it too!
But I was not in the mood to talk to the boys as of this moment. Because of what they did, the beast didn't give me any goodbye rites!
"Is it delicious?"
"Super delicious..hmmm.. yummy..." He heightened his voice, making sure I could hear it. He even faked the expression in his face to make it look like he was enjoying such glorious snack!
I know what they are doing; they were trying to make me crave the strawberry snack.
But I won't ever give in!
"Ziggy" Huzey called onto him ignoring me. Wrong. I was the one ignoring them.
"Yeah?"
"Did you happen to watch the advertisement of this one?" Huzey asked and closed the book he was reading. He shifted his focus to their conversation.
"Which one? Is that the one with the tagline..." Ziggy tried to recall something before he continued. "...Someday I know you would walk into my life…"
"....And walk out again" Huzey continued tonelessly.
Jeeeezzz! These two were making me cry. Tears started creeping in my eyes but I instantly wiped them away afraid the boys will see. Those words struck into my heart piercing every vein in it.
'Someday you would walk into my life and walk out again'.
Sh*t. Those words hurt! I turned my back to them while lying on my bed. I was sobbing quietly.
"Have you watch the movie conjuring?" Ziggy continued his conversation with Huzey.
"Yeah, what about that one?"
"You know the movie about Annabelle?"
"Annabelle the hunted doll?" Huzey answered in terror.
"Yes….She's here in the room... the hunted doll! " Ziggy continued narrating in a hoarse voice.
"Where?"
"There...." Ziggy replied and though I couldn't see what they were doing, I knew that Ziggy the gorilla was pointing at me.
"That's worse than Annabelle I think." Huzey suggested faking his fear.
"Don't talk that loud she will hear us." Ziggy whispered.
"She's gonna hunt us!"
"Can you guys shut up!" I shouted as I turned to face them. I gave them a gloomy and cold look.
"WAAAAAH" They shouted together and jumped in the bed in front of me, they covered themselves with a blanket.
"Call the exorcist!" Ziggy exclaimed while hiding in the blanket with Huzey.
"Whatever!" I looked away and laid on my bed once again.
There were a lot of feelings engulfing me right now; sadness, frustration, annoyance and guilt. I bit my lips as I tried to suppress the pain that was throbbing in my heart. I wondered if the beast felt the same way too.
Is he gonna ignore me even if we are going home tomorrow. Doesn't he feel as sad like I do?
Well, why would he be sad anyway?
He did not tell me he liked me too after I clumsily confessed right?
He just smiled. Yes, he smiled but didn't say a word. That meant he didn't feel the same way. How silly was I to think he would miss me!
But why was he so sweet with me this afternoon?
"I think he likes me to." I said to myself while on bed. The beast didn't tell me anything. Actually I was the only one assuming things.
But I was immensely hoping he felt the same way too. I hope so.
Is this a one sided love story?
"Ummm" I held a deep breath and gave Cryzer a deep hug. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, maybe everything will be good when I wake up.
But then….
"I think she was possessed, she is talking to herself alone." Ziggy said behind my back.
Heck!
The gorillas were at my back again? I didn't even notice! How did they manage to transfer in my bed without making any sound?
"Call the priest now!"
I pulled my own blanket and covered myself with it. The gorillas were not giving me any break at all!
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4:12 am, Last day of the conference.
The sun was peeking over the horizon. The sky on the other side was still dark, in the opposite direction, a mixture of yellow and orange scenery was visible. Any moment from now, the dawn will broke into morning.
I was outside the university dorm, leaning on the wall in one corner watching the beautiful sky. We did our morning jog but I got exhausted after few turns, which was unusual. I gave up jogging and rested here while the two boys continued their jog. My unsolved trouble with the beast made me a little weak and lonely I guess.
The gorillas were jogging around the university dorm, and they waved at me each time they pass by this side. I waved back of course; I didn't think I could really remain mad at the boys for a long time. So I already ended my sulking because they had been trying to cheer me up the whole night.
We were just playing a game yesterday afternoon, and we enjoyed the game. No one expected that the beast would be so mad. I mean technically it was nobody's fault for making the beast mad since we didn't know why he acted that way. I was really sad because I haven't seen him at all during the last night of the conference.
Maybe Ziggy was right, it was just a fling. Fling or not, I don't care anymore!
Whether or not we saw each other, I don't care!
Wrong.
I will surely be sad. I'm already sad right now just thinking about it.
I'm afraid of losing the things we experienced together.
I liked them. I really really liked them.
But how I wish I could see him even for one last time before leaving.
I need to have my goodbye rites. A goodbye rites I can happily remember.
I felt like crying again. Now I can confirm for the second time if that fifth theory Sir Gem mentioned was true. If you won't see him again, you will surely cry.
"Is that you Xhem?"
Dug-dug-dug-dug-dug.
A familiar silhouette emerged from the darkness.
He was topless.
Topless. I swallowed the liquid in my mouth and blinked a couple of times!
The heck!