jewel_bedazzled

******THE PICTURE USED FOR THE COVER OF THIS NOVEL IS NOT MINE, CREDITS TO IT'S OWNER. IF IT NEEDS TO BE REMOVED LET ME KNOW 


I stare at the rotten mess of a body that I've turned myself into....

I feel like telling myself that it's okay to be...

Just to be....

My brain disintegrates into the cosmos of nothingness.

The stars in this world, of lost consciousness, feel like magic....

And the black hole that's pulling me in is just the entrance to a new world or so I wish to believe, there in that world someone whispers to me that it's okay to be me...

The glamour of the white sun there would then drive out the drunken stutter of the darkness into a splendid bliss of spring trees, but how ironic would it be....



but alas! I'd still have my time limits then, for my body rots in an empty ground guarded by death and autumn leaves.






***(I'VE USED THE NON-CANON COMPLIANT PAIR OF FENG XIN AND MU QING FROM TGCF ON A VERY VERY LOOSE BASIS HERE. THIS IS COMPLETELY NON CANON COMPLIANT AND THE CHARACTERS AND TRAITS USED HERE ARE ALL MINE AND DON'T RESEMBLE THE ORIGINAL ONES, I'VE JUST TAKEN THE NAMES OF THE CHARACTERS AND NOTHING ELSE BUT STILL JUST FOR THAT REASON I'D STILL SAY IT HAS CHARACTERISTICS OF A FANFICTION. THE FANTASY WORLD AND THE WORLD BUILDING IS ALSO MINE WITH SLIGHT INSPIRATIONS TAKEN FROM USUAL DANMEI HISTORICAL FANTASY SETTINGS. I'VE ADDED MY OWN OCs IN HERE AND THIS WILL HAVE BOTH, A M/M AS WELL AS F/M ROMANCE. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ SOMETHING ORIGINAL AND ARE HERE JUST FOR A FANFICTION THEN I'D SUGGEST TO READ SOMETHING ELSE. IT'S MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT WRITING A NOVEL HENCE I'M TAKING THE HELP OF SOME OF MY FAVOURITE NOVEL CHARACTERS AS A BASE TO BUILD MY FOUNDATION. ALSO NOTE THAT THIS NOVEL HAS NOT BEEN EDITED AT ALL I WILL EDIT IT AFTER I'M DONE WRITING ALL THE CHAPTERS , I'M REALLY SORRY FOR THIS INCONVENIENCE BUT I HOPE ANYONE WHO READS THIS AND ENDS UP LIKING IT WILL BE PATIENT WITH ME. THANKS IN ADVANCE)

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