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"I look at you in the present
But I can only see our past.... 
       Day dreams and sleepless nights
An aching chest and sweet sublime.... 
       Falling far too deep..... 
A confession years overdue"

"If in life we are defined by the choices we make then I am a monster.If you stay with me I'll kill you bit by bit. That's what I do to those who love me. Why? I'm not altogether sure. But when you soar high I'll drag you down. I'll stir up your anxieties and do anything I want to do with you. This is about as fair as I can be, it's your warning. So if you're still here in the morning you've chosen that life and if you know me at all you'll realize this isn't a joke. So, my smitten lover, you have some thinking to do"

 He said before he left the room and she ,still crying on the bed covered with bruises because of the pain that she was enough of but still accepted it. 

After he lost his first love he turned into a cold monster and all that mattered to him was money and power.Women's were now a toy for him that he loved to play with.Until he had to marry a beautiful and pure hearted girl who was always treated wrong after her mother left her alone when she was only 3 years old and since then she was never loved but she still accepted the reality and remained with him. 

...All she ever wished was that someone will love her truly with his whole heart and actually want her.... 

He abused her, cheated in front of her, treated her like a  slave and made her life a living hell but she still accepted him but he still continued this and forced her to give him a child. 

"You did your best! and found ways to become physically close, chipping away at my emotional layers of protection only so that you could do the same with my clothing".She scremed at the top of her lungs looking at him. 

Yet I was only entertainment to this man, His pale skin against his red scarf once made my heart leap, yet now I see it as if I was my own mother, protective for the lonely girl I was...

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Volume 1